Friday, July 11, 2014
I've been reading a lot lately about the shifting energies currently present in the Universe. To some, this might seem like a bunch of hippy dippy new agey blah blah, but to me, if feels right on. It seems lately that everyone is speaking their minds, sometimes at the expense of others' feelings. At the same time, I've been finding that more of the people I encounter, whether online or in real time, are becoming combative and downright nasty when they experience ideas contrary to their own. Never in my life have I felt more under attack for the beliefs and ideologies that I hold near and dear. And never in my life have I felt the necessity to hold fast to those beliefs and ideologies, and to remain true to them, even if it means I might get a whole basket load of shit for having them. I'm tired of people claiming to have tender ears when their mouths seem to be working just fine. Conversation is a two way proposition, and though I generally try to stay out of attack mode, sometimes words rise and release before I've had a chance to think them through and emote from a place of lesser passion.
Though I usually consider they way in which I've spoken to another person if I've allowed my temper to flare, sometimes anger is an appropriate reaction, a response to someone who richly needs to be told that they are (in my humble opinion) out of line. There are many religious schools of thought teaching us that snark is never the way to roll, but I'm beginning to believe that there are situations where a quick witted answer is just what the doctor ordered. If nothing else, it sometimes earns me a laugh later on. Of course, at times, the opposite is true. If I'm attempting to win another person to my way of thinking, for example, I find it better to attempt a discovery of common ground before entering into heated debate. The same is true if I know I'm not going to persuade the individual in question that my way is conducive to their own way of thinking, but desire some sort of mutual understanding. Being sarcastic doesn't assist the debater in these types of dialogue. Where it does sometimes feel right and good is when one person has become abusive to another person and needs to be informed, in a method leaving no room for doubt about the meaning behind one's words, that they should seriously re-consider their actions because what they are doing is not going to be tolerated. Such was the case yesterday when I told someone who thought it was okay to look down on a struggling addict/alcoholic and say wise ass things to him or her that speaking in the tone and using the verbiage he'd selected was a good way to get punched in the face. I received a few approving glances and one semi-shocked glare, but for the most part everyone else in that room seemed to agree with me, and the words a few of them spoke later on affirmed this. Maybe I've been in Florida for too long (I know I have been), but I'm fed up and tired of rude, thoughtless, back stabbing people who feel like they can be assholes with impunity. And, when dealing in recovery, the words we speak can literally mean life or death for the person hearing them.
I'm finished being a people pleaser for fear of having my heart broken over the truth. Done. I will try to be diplomatic and kind, and I'll remember the concept of grace and try to walk the path of a peaceful warrior. But I'm not buying into the b.s. anymore.
Monday, June 9, 2014
When we awoke this morning, the land was blanketed in a soft and very stinky smoke. At first glance, it appeared that there was fog hovering over the lake; we rarely see that sort of thing here but since I'm from New England, where fog is a fairly common sight, my first thought was that was what it was. As soon as I stepped outside, I realized that the "fog" was actually smoke, and a quick internet search revealed that fires were burning in the Everglades. The smoke was so bad in some areas that sections of highway had been temporarily shut down. A few unfortunate travelers were stuck waiting for the haze to clear so they could be on their way; they couldn't see in front of their vehicles to drive for the white smoke. By this afternoon, the air had cleared considerably, but my throat is sore (in spite of my having spent very little time outside today) and the headache lingers. So far, Sparkle Fairy hasn't complained, and hopefully she doesn't have any ill effects from the polluted air we experienced today. This happens occasionally, when nature turns up the heat or the sugar cane fields are set alight, though the cane burning creates a blacker smoke.
Our weekend was interesting, a combination of Pagan and Christian activities. On Saturday, we had Sparkle Fairy's kids' group, where I found out she is a dragon in this year's ending ceremony for her class. We love dragons around here!!!! It was nice to be among like minded souls, but I'm a little sad that the class seems to be dwindling. Some of the families who used to participate have moved away, while others are busy with unrelated activities. The teens are all off doing teenager things and don't want to get up early on Saturday to go to the UU Church. This year's Beltane turnout at the UU was meager, with fewer vendors and many of the familiar faces missing. Sparkle Fairy and I were among the only parents and kids who showed up to represent the Pee Wees group. I don't know what's going on. On Sunday, we had an open house for our neighbors' church school. It actually wasn't too bad. I don't have anything against what they believe in, I'm just not so into the absolutism. Also, every time I wander away from my magickal lifestyle I miss it terribly. As well, it's hard for me to see the Bible as the one and only book that gives us the word of God. I mean, it was written by human beings, very fallible human beings, in a different time from the one we live in now. There are some wonderful and not so wonderful ideas within those pages, and I'm not saying there isn't any divinity present within them, but I'm not so sure about the "one truth" bit. I will confess to being in possession of a huge fondness for my Jewish roots and heritage, but get me in a group of rowdy Pagans and I feel right at home. Maybe it's the free spirit in me; it's just hard for me to be too confined, even if I do love the concept of grace and try to practice it in my daily life whenever I can. I'm a work in progress as far as that's concerned. I also feel deeply connected to nature, and feel it quite easy to communicate on some level with the wildlife in our yard (sparse as it might be), and my spirituality is intertwined with the natural order of things.
Well, my eyelids are getting heavy, and tomorrow will be an early day. Off to walk the doggie man and turn in for the night.
Monday, December 16, 2013
The atmosphere in our house has finally become more festive. This took a bit of an effort on the part of Sparkle Fairy and me, as the Hub has been depressed over struggles with work. I don't know why, but it is very difficult to find anyone here in South Florida who wants to work. I know such people exist, but when it comes to our business we have experienced very little luck in wooing them over to our doorstep. I believe part of the issue to be the transient nature of this place. Lots of people arrive in South Florida with big dreams and little motivation, or dreams of lying on a sandy beach somewhere while the money they need to live magically rolls toward then on the waves. That said, I personally know quite a few people in South Florida who are highly motivated and in possession of a fantastic work ethic, so I know they exist. Maybe there are just fewer of them in the world of construction. But I digress.
This weekend, we sparkled up the Yule tree and the Hub strung more lights in the trees in our front yard. He put up a few lights last week but I was secretly a bit disappointed that he didn't put out more. Usually he gets excited and a little crazy and I'll walk outside to find him up on the roof trying to balance an inflatable Rudolph with a blow up Santa, a mad scientist expression on his face. This year's attitude is more subdued, but we've managed to tease some spirit out of him, and I'm glad for that.
The heat has not subsided much to date. While our nights are cooler and some days the temperatures are a wee bit lower, the 80+ degree weather seems reluctant to leave us. My northern family and friends scoff at me when I complain, but I'm a northern girl at heart, and I've been down here for enough years to have cultivated a deep longing for changing seasons once again. Of course, left for a week in weather that ventures into the 20's, I might start whining. One is never sure, as we humans are prone to the romanticism of times and places past.
This weekend at the ArtsPark there was a Christmas festival. Our little family ventured over, albeit late, and listened to a very dynamic gospel band while watching people stroll past, some decked in Santa hats, others sporting face paintings from a booth that was offering them as well as balloon figures. The music was a bit too much for me, but if you were the sort to enjoy lots of "washed in the blood" types of lyricism, you'd probably enjoy it. For me, the trees in the park were the high point of the evening. The park at Young's Circle is home to some of the most amazing trees I have seen in a long while. I wonder how I'd forgotten about this; I complain about this area's lack of extensive forests while right down the street is a beautiful park containing trees that are truly magical. Live oaks stretch their graceful arms in all sort of twisting directions, while Jacarandas grow thick and tall. At least, I think they're Jacaranda trees. I need to do some research regarding that. Walking between these trees on Saturday night, I could easily imagine picnicking beneath them with Sparkle Fairy, or reading a book stretched out on a blanket in the sheltering shade of their branches. We truly do need to open our eyes and our hearts to witness the wonder around us.
And a new weeks begins!