It's been a long time since my last post-almost a month!!! Life has been busy since the start of our new homeschool year and I've been faced with much less in the way of personal time. When I have a few moments for the stealing, I need to choose very carefully the activities with which to fill that time. There are very few of those moments in the offing, and I have many, many projects that I long to spend time on! That's not to say that I am not loving what I'm spending my time on. Our little one is learning how to read and do math, we've joined a recently started Spiral Scouts group, along with another young kids' group, and I've met a wonderful group of witchy women with whom I hope to engage in some spiritual work. They hold a full moon gathering each month; thus far I have been unable to attend, but I hope to be invited again for the next gathering. I'm very excited to have met some people of like mind. It has made me realize just how isolated I felt in my spirituality. I have felt a deep longing for the past several months to connect with other Pagans, people who understand where I'm coming from and with whom I can engage in some honest spiritual and magickal talk without getting the old hairy eyeball. In short, I've been feeling a deep need for connection with people with whom I can be myself, truly and deeply. I have been asking the Goddess for this, and it seems that she is responding in kind, and I'm very very happy to have these new opportunities ahead. On another note, our little one turned five today! It's hard to believe that it's been five years since she and I were holed up in the hospital-me waiting axiously for those two days to pass so that I could take her home and get on with life (that stuff about resting turned out to be a bunch of bs-how can anybody rest when someone is waking her up every two hours to draw blood?). She has been the light of my life since that day five years ago. As these years have passed, I have grown into a woman, transformed beyond my wildest dreams, because of my love for her. How can we live our lives fearfully when we long for our child to live her life with gusto? Our children tend to "listen" to our actions more than our words; what they see us do is important. And so, I'm doing things today that I would have been terrified to do a few years ago. She is an amazing little person-independent, full of curiousity and fire. I feel blessed today, and I hope and pray that the next five years are as wonderful as these past five have been. Slainte!
